Weight Loss Update

So here is the update.  This fat girl does not want to go anywhere!!!  Making life changes is proving to be harder than I initially thought.

If I have not said that already I am a SUGAR FREAK!  I love sweets and I love me some Mc Donalds tea.  It's a super sugar high!  You see my problem :(

One thing I have learned avout myself is that I am an all or nothing girl.  At least for now I can't give my self "treats" here and there because I end up falling off the the "whatever" bandwagon. 

So to date I have lost about 2 lbs which is not much.  And the working out has been on hiatus :(.  Each time that I pass by the workout DVD section on my book self I silently make a mental note to work out.  :S 

So there it is.  This heifer is not going easily. 

Closet cleanup

I know that this is totally off subject but I started my new eating habits as of yesterday.  I stayed under 1800 calories today and I am so proud.   It's really going to take some getting used to.  I have never been one to count calories,  I always just guesstimate how fattening or healthy a meal is by just giving it my 'evaluation'. Not smart, I know.  I found this really great app on my blackberry which tells me the general caloric count of meals including fast food which will be a great help. 

Anyway, note to self- start slowly.  I know that I did not get this way over night and I have to keep telling myself that change will come gradually.  I'm trying to log what I am eating and also am logging my exercise.  I will post a summary after about a week or so. 

Okay so back to my original story.  After cruising a couple of my favorite blogs  I got the sudden urge to organize my closet, random I know, well after hanging up a few items I started to notice a pattern.  All of my clothes is all the same.  Big billowy shirts that hide my body.  I also noticed that the only shorts that I have are shorts to sleep in.  :(  It's summer and I don't feel comfortable in a pair of shorts. 

So after checking every item of clothes that I own I have decided that I will donate a item of clothing once a week.  Starting with the comfortable stuff better known as my 'fat pants'.  This I hope will give me motivation to stick to what I am doing.  In the past I have shied away from buying new clothes.  My excuse: If I lose weight next week it will be a waste of money.  No more of that fat.  ;)

Well time to burn some calories in my sleep. 

Bye Bye Fat Girl.

Last night I stayed up until 3 a.m. reading this blog .  It was really inspiring to me.  I have pretty much struggled with weight most of my life.  When I was a little girl I was so thin.  Tiny, really it looked like I never ate.  Then it all changed when I was a teenager, maybe 14??   While ttc we found out that I have PCOS. 

For those of you who know about this it makes it difficult to lose weight.  Well anyway fast forward 15 years and I am still over weight and I am SO TIRED!!!  Here is why..

• I hate to try on clothes 
• I have never found a "perfect' pair of jeans
• I can't climb stairs without being out of breath
• I have a small wardrobe bc there isn't much that I am comfortable wearing
• I DONT wear bathing suites, even the ones with covers
• I'm tired all the time 

This is only scratching the surface.  Don't get me wrong.  I have "tried" and I use that term loosly.  Here a few things I have "tried":

* Zumba dvds - with the zumba sticks :)
* Biggest loser dvd
* Treadmill- currently collecting dust
* Prenatal yoga- I did this while I was pregnant
* Pilates dvds
* 2-3 gym memberships
* south beach diet books
* low carb diets
* juicing

I'm getting frustrated just writing about that.  I just want to be comfortable in my own body.

I will be turning 30 in 3 months.  I want to get started now.  Eating healthy and living a healthy lifestyle. 

I will document it all here the good, the bad, and the ugly.  I will start by listing my weight.  I can't believe that I am doing this but here it is.

240 lbs.  :(  I'm 5'5 so technically I'm considered severly obese.  I am currently a size 16.  I will post pictures along the way along with what is working for me. 

Here I go.  Wish me luck.