Hey baby!! Whats your name???

My baby boy has a name!!!  After some long and hard thinking.  His name will be Judah Christian.  I love it.  Such a strong name for my little trooper.  I can't believe how that time has flown by I'm now 5 and a half months along.  Each day is one day closer that I get to meet him.  Words really can't express how ready we are to set eyes on this little baby. 

This was a FAIL!!! lol

The other day I was at Babies r Us and I saw this sitting on the shelf.  Counting the last time that I went to the doctor I have heard my pumpkins heartbeat about 4 times.  You just have to believe that it is the most beautiful sound in the world.   Well I saw this and thought - okay if I get this I could hear his heart and movement-  okay so not exactly what I thought it would be.  I got home and unwrapped it.  I made *D* go downstairs to find me a battery.  I followed the instructions and strapped this sucker to my belly.  Ahhhhh.... both *D* and I put the ear buds in AND.... static.  We couldn't help but laugh.  I guess that some how I thought that I would hear all kinds of sounds.  I guess that it was too soon or perhaps my fluff got in the way.  Anyhow my mission is now to find the perfect spot and time of day where I can hear my baby!! :)

Good Eats... Prego style!!

Up to this point I have gained about 1lb during this pregnancy.  Let just say that I started this pregnancy a little.... fluffy!  Yes, fluffy!  I also get full really fast but I think it's because my little pumpkin is taking up more and more room.     As far as cravings go, I haven't had many.  I mean there are things that sound good but nothing that I have just absolutely been DYING for.  Like today,  this is my lunch.  Peaches and cottage cheeses! MMMM..... this was so good and filling :)

Feeling a little crafty

So the other day I went to Joanns craft store and got an idea to make some burp cloths from some cute fabric that I found. Well here they are.  They came out soooo cute.  I was so excited after I was done that I went to the store to get some more fabric and  towels.  Well about 30 dollars later I have a TON of them.  Let's just say that I got a little carried away.  Burp cloth total= 55 !!!  Crazy I know.

My nephew *I* is only a few weeks away from getting here so we will defiantly be sharing.  :)

5 Months Pregnant

Today I am five months pregnant!  I can't believe how fast the time has passed it really feels like it was just yesterday I was praying that one day I would meet you.  Well because I'm five months already I got to see you again.  Actually, it was me, your daddy, grandma, tio, and tia.  They all wanted to see you and find out whether you are a little girl or a little boy.  Well today we found out that you are a little baby boy.  My son.  I can't believe it.  I honestly thought that you were a girl, sorry love.  Now I really can't wait to meet you!!  You were all over the place.  Moving and squirming all over.  For a split second you came right up to the place were the tech had the wand thingy and waved right at us like you knew that we were there watching. :)  Feeling you move inside of my belly is one of the most amazing feelings.  I promise you that I will be the best mom I can be.  

Everyone is so excited.  Especially your daddy.  He talks to you and about you all the time!  You are going to love him.  I know that he is going to be such a great dad.  I love you will all of me!

A

Dear Cupcake,
As of tomorrow you will have officially been growing in my belly for 19 whole weeks.  I can't believe how the time has flown by.  I remember the day that we went to the doctors office and he showed me you very first picture.  Just a tiny little embryo ready to be put back in my tummy.  Words will never describe how I felt on that day.  It was so amazing.  I laid there praying for God to hear my prayer and let you grow inside of me.

According to baby center you are now the size of an heirloom tomato.  Oh baby, I can't wait to meet you!!  I love you with all of my heart.

Love,
A

Marriage

I really have the best husband in the world.  Last night he walks in from work with a bouquet of pink tulips.  They are so pretty and it made me feel so good that even though I know he was tired and ready to come home he stopped to get those for me. :)   I am so BLESSED.

*D* and I have been married now for 3 years and 3 months.  Since the beginning of our marriage we have counted each other as one anthers best friend.  I honestly think that there is no better man out there for me.  Over the years we have had our share of hard times from trying every month to conceive to fertility treatments, surgeries and the physical and emotional stress that all of these things bring.  But there is one thing that has never wavered and that was his love and commitment to me and my love and commitment to him.  Just the other day I woke up with an upset stomach which ultimately led me to have my head in the toilet and there behind me was my husband searching for his lost contact on the floor and I thought to my self "I am the luckiest woman in the world " and this is my perfect life.  I though about this picture of us the remainder of the day.

When we first met I was head over heels.  I imagined the ideal life with the babies that I would have and the life that we would live.  After the wedding and after the initial "high" faded life began to wash away the shades of tint on the rose colored glasses that I had put on.  At first I struggled with the fact that things were not going according to my plan.  But as time has passed I have learned to love my husband in a different way -a deeper way. I think back on all the times that he has wiped my tears away, held me tight when I just needed a hug, or made funny faces at me to get me to laugh and cheer up , just done something just because he was thinking of me, or held my hand and whispered a prayer when I needed it the most.  And I think this is what true love is.  All the candy and the flowers and the gifts are nice, don"t get me wrong, but none of this could add up to all that he truly and so openly gives to me everyday.